Unfortunately, that reality is that I don’t think I’m going to be able to run a marathon this spring. And that sucks.
You already know about my ankle injury that had me sidelined for 2 1/2 weeks. I adjusted my training to see if I could still fit in all of my long runs while at the same time not rushing my return to running, and while this is possible there is really no wiggle room, no time for any other injuries or distractions from training.
Unfortunately my body seems to have other plans.
Last week I was able to run a total of 15 miles and my ankle felt great. I mentioned in my last post that during my 7 miler my hip flexors were tight and a little sore, and afterwards my “hass” hurt. I took Monday off completely, skipping my planned 30 minutes on the bike, and yesterday I felt much better so I ran 3 miles. I felt great during and after the run (and it was a much-needed run; yesterday was very much a crankypants day), but later that night the hass pain started in again and bothered me all night.
I’m feeling a bit better today but not much. I can’t quite figure out exactly what the problem is. Is it a muscle? My sciatic nerve? Piriformis? It’s a bit vague, moving from my ass to my hip, lower back a bit, hip flexor a touch, too. It hurts in front and back and seems to be worse when I’m sitting.
I had it in my head that this was nothing, that I could self-diagnose and self-treat as I usually do, but if it keeps getting worse I think I need to be less stubborn and face the fact that as much as I hate having to spend the money, I might end up back at my sports ortho for this one.
Regardless of whether I end up at the ortho or this goes away on its own, I think the May 6 marathon is a no-go. If I keep up my training as planned, I will likely end up in worse shape than I am in currently. So I think I need to put my marathon plans on hold for a while.
Depending on what happens with my hass (sorry to keep using my made-up word, I just don’t know what else to call it!), I may still be able to salvage a half marathon. I am already in half marathon shape so as long as I can maintain fitness using the bike and/or elliptical it might happen.
But… but I don’t want to run a half. I want to run a full. I am so frustrated. I really thought I could pull it off this time, after having such a great end to last year. My 2010 injury ruled it out for last year but I really thought 2012 would be the year for my second marathon. The winter weather even cooperated with my training schedule! I eventually want to try a 50K, and how can I hope to do that if I can’t even make it to marathon #2? I didn’t even make it to the long long runs!
I know things could be worse. I know I have plenty of time left to run marathons. And I know that as long as I can run, no matter the distance, I will be happy. It’d be nice, though, if for once things came together the way I wanted them too.
For now, I’ll see how things go. Since it seems to hurt more while sitting and does not hurt while running, I’ll try doing short, easy runs, if that remains pain free, and will take time off from running if it gets worse or starts to hurt during runs. If that doesn’t help, I’ll suck it up and go to the ortho. Because as nice as it would be to self-diagnose, I don’t have any medical training so I am no expert. I’m just a girl who loves to run.